Deasyann's Blog

Please reveal urself just to me

deasyann — Mon, 24 Oct 2011 14:56:15 +0000

Hm say i am really discontent
I like men cling all over beside
Maybe the world just as strange as i am
Or i’m just too weird to be accepted
And u guys should deal with it too, its just not fair
…
So i shout just go away from me
Dont ever show ur nose on my face
Just leave me alone and im not gonna hurt anybody
My broken wings has its scar
And its hurting inside my heart
…
Even up till now i cant recall ur face in my dream
I just remember the way u stroke with ur gentle hands
I want to see that face every morning when i wake up
I want to feel that breath of urs somehow
I want to embrance u with my being
…
I really cant go far from u at this point
I am just too dishonest to betray the tremble of my desire
I am drain empty shield that only blow the wind back
I dont have anything else to say to the world
Fight is my common thing but my strength just gone
…
Please reveal ur true hidden mask
So that i can understand u a bit
I am weak for only been known in front of u dear
Im gonna strugle this life if its only for u
Just give me those sunshine on ur graceful face that brings my peace back

Message . . .

deasyann — Mon, 24 Oct 2011 14:14:35 +0000

Inbox :

I have this burden in my heart
That I think u wouldn’t know
Sometimes I hope u can stand alone on ur own feet
But then come these difficult time that I feel like u need me most
How I suppose to deal with it I still wonder to figure out
However we can’t be together
Coz one and another reason
But to make u feel save should I say it loud
I will always love u
No matter how the situation
How I disgust with the way u treat me before
Still I can’t deny that I can’t hate u
So please whenever u down remember these words and keep strike ur day as usual

Reply :

aku awan yang selalu akan meneduhkan km dari sengatan matahari,
aku tanah yang akan menjadi landasan arah kemana kamu melangkah,
aku air yang akan membersihkan keringat km kapanpun dan dimanapun
namun, aku hanya dapat melindungi tanpa dapat memiliki km sepenuhnya
aku senang dapat melihat, melindungi dan menjadi pengarah langkahmu

Fuzzy mind

deasyann — Sun, 23 Oct 2011 06:23:14 +0000

What is my future like
When will i get marry
With whom i spend the rest of my life
How old i am when i really introduce my soulmate to my parent
How will they react
Oh gosh i just cant figure out how things change so quickly
Even my graduation is on my eyes and stil i havent prepare anything yet!
Talking about the time after my graduation day is still blur too
I even havent apply for any other job again
Yet my sister ask for my help to babysit her baby ofc
Well in fact my cousin start to work for my parent and i think im not needed to help with their work again
So here i am with clueless future about myself and whats going around me so confusing

Honey Bee

deasyann — Sun, 23 Oct 2011 05:47:39 +0000

Honey come from bee
But u actually treat me as ur honey
U pick the best of me
And help me to regain life
Produce my happiness
And keep my blooming beautifuly
U never waste ur time with me around
Coz u think I’m very special
Without honey, bee can’t live
So do u say when its without me
I really grateful to have u always beside me
Like a honey to the bee

Hey ho!

deasyann — Sat, 15 Oct 2011 16:12:25 +0000

I’m bacccckkkkkkk
YAYYYY
So What am i happy for?
Well it’s kinda too late to have tell this news on my blog
I’ve PASS the trial thesis already, and i got B (it’s not that bad)
Now it’s time to wait for graduation day and begin with searching and applying for a job that suits me best
I sort of hoping for the research company that i’ve been tested about 2 weeks ago and being stated pass
Getting lazy to looking for another, hm or should i say i think there’s nothing interesting me yet
All of the family and friends are like to ask me all of the time about what i plan, what i do right now, what am i good into, etc
I know they worried about me so they act like that
To think of, i really thinking of entrepreneurship hm it’s not like i’m saying i have some idea in my mind but i really get excited to talk or read about it
And in the other hand i’m thinking about taking master abroad (oh seriously where the money come from!)
Yeah i know u must be wondering what a complicated mind that i have

Jangan takut~

deasyann — Mon, 16 May 2011 08:44:43 +0000

Anakku

Mengapa air mukamu sedih

Apa yang membebanimu

Beritahukanlah kepadaKu

…

Anakku

Aku tak pernah berjanji

Untuk membereskan masalahmu

Ataupun menghindarkanmu darinya

…

Anakku

Aku mengijinkan adanya masalah

Karena Aku tahu engkau sanggup menanggungnya

Karena Aku ingin engkau tetap melekat padaKu

…

Anakku

Jika lemah lututmu

Atau bergetar tanganmu

Datanglah kepadaKu

…

Sebab Aku selalu menantimu berpaling kembali

Aku yang memberikan kekuatan dan kesegaran jiwa padamu

Akan selalu ada mengawasimu sepanjang waktu

KasihKu padamu tak kan pernah berubah

by GOD

- memory -

deasyann — Thu, 12 May 2011 16:50:01 +0000

do u know?
I really want to stop the time and there beside u every moment

do u know?
every tear that dropped was the fear of losing u

do u know?
this time I was drooped, but when I remember everything about u, I felt compelled to continue to survive

do u know?
the most beautiful thing in life is to hear u laugh and talk about the days that u pass without me.
thats very beautiful and I never want to close my eyes , although I know were not going to be together forever

A♥D

i want u to know~

deasyann — Thu, 12 May 2011 16:46:46 +0000

every heavy breath that u take

i always worry for u

every time u disappear

i always think how r u

…

every words that u say

i try to understand it right

find the meaning

behind things that u do

…

sory for being so me

and decide everything by my own

thanks for not give up on me

coz that means u value me much

Selfish~

deasyann — Thu, 12 May 2011 06:21:18 +0000

Yeah i am

What should i say

I want u to be mine

For every second

…

I want u to be with me

Always

I want u remember me

All the time

…

I wish u can hear

My heart whispering

Only ur name

Again and again

the real me

deasyann — Mon, 09 May 2011 08:42:24 +0000

my writing is being watched
my saying is being recorded
my behaviour is being talked
how can i not feel retarted
…
how can i grow as ppl on my age
too many demand i got here
thou i really want to be as u wish
my burden is so heavy
…
cant i enjoy the life now
cant i just flow with the situation
cant i be as i want for a moment in my life
i wish someone know eventhou i didnt say