Be here..

ugh..
give me my breath
let me alive
dont leave me alone
…
i am nothing
like where i come from
im so hopeless
like a corpse walking
…
my soul dried
my faith gone
i have no love for other
i am desolate

My friend, Ro

heh read this poem with a smile
coz u will know the reason soon
that was really u
whom i know
…
spread the craziness in the air
and let our laugh saturate within the environment
dancing in the joy
and let it radiated on our face
…
feel the rythem that beating in ur heart
and u will know what it is
the fun is coming
and i know u like it
…
a good friend of mine
who share the same interest
i guess
hahaha
…
laugh when we want
stand in the silent sometimes
talk about whatever in life
then teasing each other lol
…
trying poses
and then criticize em
life seems so easy
with having u beside me

It’s you

dear..
i want u to know
that my love for u is real
and i will treasure it
…
for me
ur saying that u miss me
is enough to make me shy
…
sometimes
i want u to show more of ur romantic side
but idk if it is too much for u
so i didnt dare to say it
…
i dont want to fly too high
coz im afraid of falling down
yes there is time that i really miss u a lot
but ur not there

i want to know

i want to know
why i am here
to be born
to this world
…
i want to know
what am i useful for
or what difference if im not exist
…
this life is so unworthy
if i do nothing
my sickness of writing
all out tonight
…
im so hopeless
not even a creature like me
crawling hoping to survive
and live for no future
…
as long as im here
all i do is nothing
but making sins
by each day
…
i want to know
the story that tell
the end of my story
where will i be

what should i do

many things come to my life
give me a space
to take a breath
freely
…
im afraid
to take the next step
i dont want to fall
for the same hole
…
but how fool i am
i know it from the first place
still my legs step forward
cant hold back
…
who can help me
with this kind of situation
even i cant really open
my heart fully
…
i worry many things
before i can tell them anything
i was feel so unsecure
only with u i feel relief
…
then
what should i do
tell me
tell me

this is it

this is it
what i can effort
to give u back
all that ive received
…
i know
i dont deserve many
but still u spoiled me
with everything
…
im grateful of that
yes i really do
but i cant get myself all together
to stand on my feet
…
u know
im this kind of a person
how to make it better
i dont have any idea

sunk myself?

is it that good
if i sunk myself
deep
with my thought
…
not wondering about others
and the time pass so quick
let me not knowing it
and i can call past
…
it was always complicated
what inside my brain
never stop working
any worrying bout things

good leader not?

aku benci menunggu
dalam ketidakpastian
akan datangnya suatu kejadian
…
pikirku selalu menerawang
jauh
memperkirakan
…
i always want to say
lets do this
or that now
quickly
…
i dont want to know
other ppl feeling
but i think its good
to get everything done as soon as possible
…
they who were leaded by me
never complaint
any single word
so i consider it as OK

my egoism..

so much pain
inside
so much sin deed
come from my dignity mind
…
i dunno
where have to search
i confuse
what life meaning
…
if i can choose
i want to be a flower
only worry about himself
and nothing else
…
i want pleasure
but dont want the effect
as if i consume good coffe
and leaving its slag on the cup

get me back!

hilang sudah
hasrat hidupku
tersapu cepat
bagai angin lewat
…
mengingat masa yang lalu
serasa menelan ludah sendiri
terganjal perbedaan
mencolok
…
ingin kutarik diriku
menuju lekangnya waktu
mendamba waktu itu
mengembirakan